All of the mix emotion and thoughts staying back here again in Singapore to work and provide for my family , away from my children and husband cause of the COVID-19 pandemic.
# when you felt like crying, but seems like there’s no point of crying .
# when your tears just keep on flowing , even you think it’s for no reason.
# when your trying to keep it all and not show, but you can’t just hide it.
# when your heart feels heavy, and your not even sure why.
# when you feel like talking about it, in the other hand you choose not to, as silence is much comfortable.
# when you’re trying not to thinks about it, however it just get stuck on your brain like those tiny cells and they keep on popping like a mushroom .
# when you’re trying to be busy to forget about it, but you’re actually not a machine not to stop being busy.
# when your heart felt heavy, and your not sure how to let it go.
# when your anxious of lots of things, your just getting lost.
# when you have millions of thoughts, and you become unsure of your emotions.
# when you're unsure if to smile or to be grumpy on dark days.
# when you’re all confused, and feel strange, and just keep trying to let it go with deep breaths.
# sigh, sigh, sigh, hundred of times, you will even say….. why???
# when you thought it’s all sorted, but you’re worried to be so comfortable, so your telling to yourself “don’t let your guard down”
# when you knew it’s coming , but still worried that it might take a different turn.
# when your full of love in your heart , and you don’t know where, how, and to whom to give it out.
# you know you are loved, but still feel empty.
# when you know that you are finally freed, but still sad.
# and when your just sad.
# when your not sure until when.
# when you feel empty inside, not sure how to fill it.
# when you can’t hug and kiss your love one's everyday, and those every single day feels like something stuck on your throat .
# when your worried of your love ones , but you know you can’t do anything.
# when you know you are powerless.
# when you feel like you loose, because you feel lost.
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Title: Embracing Emotions: Navigating Life's Uncertainties Amidst the Pandemic
In the quiet solitude of my room, amidst the bustling streets of Singapore, I find myself engulfed in a whirlwind of emotions. It's a peculiar mix of gratitude and longing, of strength and vulnerability, all intertwined in the fabric of my existence during these unprecedented times of the COVID-19 pandemic.
As I gaze out of the window, watching the cityscape glittering under the moonlight, I can't help but feel a heaviness in my heart. It's a weight that seems to have settled there, uninvited yet unwavering. I try to pinpoint its origin, but it eludes me like a fleeting shadow in the night.
There are moments when tears threaten to spill from my eyes, seemingly without reason or rhyme. It's as if my soul is trying to release the pent-up emotions that have been bottled inside for far too long. Yet, even as I wipe away the tears, the ache remains, a constant companion in this journey of uncertainty.
In the silence that envelops me, I find solace. There's a certain comfort in the stillness, in the absence of words and explanations. It's as if silence understands what words cannot express, embracing me in its gentle embrace as I navigate through the maze of my thoughts.
But try as I might to distract myself, to bury myself in tasks and busyness, the weight in my heart refuses to budge. It's a reminder that I am not immune to the storm raging within, that I am human, vulnerable and raw.
In moments of anxiety, when the world feels like it's spinning out of control, I find myself grappling with a myriad of emotions. It's like trying to hold onto sand slipping through my fingers, each thought fleeting yet profound in its own right.
And amidst it all, there's a longing, a yearning for something elusive yet essential. It's a craving for connection, for the warmth of a hug, the reassurance of a kiss. But in a world where physical distance is the new norm, such simple gestures seem like a luxury beyond reach.
Yet, amid the chaos and confusion, there's a glimmer of hope, a flicker of light cutting through the darkness. It's the realization that even in moments of despair, there is love – love that binds us together, love that gives us strength to endure.
So, as I navigate through this labyrinth of emotions, I remind myself to embrace it all – the tears and the laughter, the fear and the hope. For in the tapestry of life, every thread, no matter how tangled, adds to the richness of the whole. And in the end, it's our ability to feel, to love, to endure, that makes us truly human.
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